Being down and unable to sleep are symptoms
, and there are good medications to help you through all this. Getting another job right now would be impossible, but be grateful you still have one! Do not allow getting older to bother you, as it sure beats the alternative. I've lost several loved ones at a young age, son 31, husband 32, brother-in-law 38, grandson 18, brother 23. I'm grateful for every day, as I know how fragile this life is.