If you were running from God, you could probably understand why the
testings and severe trials keep coming on
. If you
were a down-and-out sinner who despised the
things of God, you could bring yourself to believe you deserved to be hurt badly. But you are not running - you are not rejecting Him in any way. You long to do His perfect will. You yearn to serve Him with all that is in you. And that is why your hurting is so debilitating.