) afraid I am going to pass out, afraid everyone is looking at me and knows something is amiss, afraid I have some new deadly illness, etc. I have had every test under the
sun, and several doctors tell me that I have an anxiety disorder, which actually offended me. I felt like I was going to die and it would be all their faults for not doing the right tests on me. Out of all these symptoms I have had, and for such a long time, I thought there was no way this was just anxiety.