Avery close friend told me the reason i have not left is because i have low self esteem,,she also thinks that over the years my husband created it ,,i visit my parents recently who helped me get out of my financial rut my husband put us in when the affair happened,,and told me they helped me and the kids it is not for him,,who did this to us,,my mom says i looked tired and unhappy,,and i lost weight ,,im weighing now 110 pounds,,and it looks terrible on me,,she says i look boney,,it hurt me to h