It didnot work before and the same problems that came
up with him in the past will come
up again. Your a mature woman with responsibilites now, not a 16 year old girl anymore. This is a terrible thing that both of you are doing. Hiding, cheating, lieing, and the point about holding hands is ridiculous and immature. You say nothing has changed as only are older now, this is as far from the truth i hope.