' I am now adamant that I have a personality disorder
; the issue is, I can align my personality
traits with those of a variety of personality disorders, but I am leaning towards the narcissistic one. If that is true, I have formed a false self, which, as I'm sure you can imagine, is fuelling my HOCD, as I am having intrusive thoughts telling me that my 'real self' is of course, gay. The latter is preventing me from actively pursuing treatment for a personality disorder that may or may not exist.