I'm a first timer, so i don't know exactly how you feel but up until 19 weeks I was freaking out, over stressed, lost my job, baby daddy didn't have one, had to move into my parents and rely on them a lot. Baby daddy left me and all I wanted was an abortion every since I had found out. But you know what, baby's are a true blessing from above, after awhile it gets easier, yiu get more excited towards the middle to end.