I am working hard to focus on NOT feeling ashamed and embarrassed about my body for fear I could fall back into an eating problem, but it has been indescribably difficult to go through drug withdrawal, seemingly useless workouts, and a littany of experts and loved ones telling me that the weight
gain has nothing to do with the drugs
. Honestly, if anything were going to make me suicidal these experiences would have.
Sorry to go on and on. Hope this is helpful to someone.