Being true to myself is tricky at best--part of my lack of success on the pump was the feeling that I could never really know for sure that what I was doing was going to work or not. I understood
carb counting, but I got conflicting advice from one specialist to another, often resulting in extended high blood sugars (which I absolutely loathe beyond description). After feeling wretched for an extended period of time, I think I lost the trust in the people who were supposed to be helping me.