I too struggled at first with
insulin doses (which I also tried to adjust myself), trying to understand
carb counting, etc. And I too gained wight steadily for years. I know how frustrating it all can be but trust me, what you're experiencing is very common, yet it doesn't have to be this way. What you need is to take control of your diabetes with a team of specialists: an endocrinoligist, Certified Diabetes Educator, and a nutritionist.