As Im sitting here in my recovery { 5 days off methadone & loving it }, Im begining to think about some of my choices I,ve made in relationships in my past & Im finally seeing things in a whole new light, I have had many boyfriends in my lifetime, to many, sure maybe but it is what it is, I cant change that, but what I noticed for the first time is how I was always attracted to the bad-boy, the functioning alcoholic the pill addict, the guy that I could take care of & fix.