So, I was able to make my decision based on soooo much more info. When I do have my little baby and
he/she is all grown up and
wants to know more about his/her bio dad, I will have an exstensive resource to share from. So, the moral of this is, at the time BFN's yes DEVESTATING! But, God/ or whatever "lifesource" you subscribe to, knows so much more than we do and in the end things will turn out better than imagined.