you really need to be concerned about how you will STAY clean, which is the hardest part, and taken me 5 years
to figure that one out... i used
to use once
a month, then once
a week, then daily, then off the chain with escalating consumption and $$$$... stop it now while you can, what worked for me was AA/NA meetings every day just to stop the urge and learn how to deal with things as they come and not medicated...
you can do it, just remember it isnt forever, and this too shall pass...