So before Christmas he enjoyed his parties, came home late, drunk, angry etc etc - you got the picture. Since than I hate Christmas
. It is a time of depression, anxiety and overall sad
time. I always end up depressed beating myself up for being without a partner etc. I have my son so I do Christmas for him. And it is massive. Decorated house, many presents. He obviously loves Christmas and I have to play me too. I wish I could get this **** from the past out of my system. So far I am fighting.