I completely cut myself off from him and his family (my family did the same, my mom lost her best friend because of this) and for years and years I had anxiety attacks every time I thought I might run accross him, going
to my hometown, on facebook, at church, walmart even I ran into him. And I wanted
to go
to a church in town when I moved, but I knew he attended church there so for years I stopped going to church because of the anxiety attacks fearing i would see him.