I agree with Clysta, give it some time before you make any final decisions. We're all here for you, to vent with, cry with, laugh, share your concerns, etc...there is also an anxiety forum here, which I wanted to mention because they may be able to help you find a way to control it without seeing a dr. BUT I urge you to talk to one just because post partum depression is serious, and you should discuss your anxiety with a dr before giving birth.