Mind you, I also use nicotine to quit smoking, which I think may add to the initial stimulant effect of the coffee
I want so badly to quit since I know how
calm and amazing I will feel. My anxiety almost completely dissapears after some time without caffeine, but I haven't been without for longer than two weeks for twelve years, since I started drinking it. But at the same time it's so difficult since it's pretty much a decision I'm forced to make.