I don't really have a question, just wanted to update. Yes, I'm starting over on day 1, again! For the 4th time and hopefully the last time ( knock on wood!) I feel more positive this time, I'm looking at the bigger picture and trying not to dwell on the little things...like how I want pills!!! No, I really don't this time. I'm listening to music that motivates me, even if it makes me cry! I'm googling encouraging quotes, and reading self help books...