Then there are nights like tonight where I dose for
a few seconds even though I’m exhausted.
I wake panicked heart pounding. Then
I start pacing
I want to go outside. I need sound, sometimes white noise works sometimes tv works, nightLight. I usually play a game to calm me. I sometimes wake up extremely warm. I’m getting about 5 1/2 hours sleep. I haven’t been “normal “ since my surgery. I’m scared to fall asleep. I’m afraid of sleeping. This has me nervous because I just want rest.