m not trying to be mean, but I can tell you that as long as you have access, especially easy access to pills, you will continue to
relapse. If you are serious about long term recovery, cut off all access to pills. Whatever that means to you. It's critical. Aftercare, is also critical. There you will get support and tools to help you remain clean.
I wish you the very best. Time to start again. You can do this!