Your thought processes are a little concerning to me, in that you already have in your mind how many pills you would like to get, worrying about if the NP will up your
dose, etc. 2.5 mg of Ativan daily is kind of a hefty
dose, not to mention, you've already started abusing the prescription by taking more. NONE of those are good signs, unfortunately.
I know you're having an awful lot of anxiety coming off the Subs, and I really feel for you.