Last summer, I read a poem about a boy who grew up. Right at the end of the poem, he kills himself and for some reason, this really affected me. I started to have these visions of a boy cutting himself until he would die, there would be blood everywhere and his mum could come in to find him, and she'd start screaming. None of this is real but when the visions occurred, it would seem like this was happening in front of me, and I wouldn't be able to stop thinking about it.