Usually I can stay clean for about 2 weeks and either I will get some phentermine (diet pills) or my
Vyvanse script filled and again
use/abuse
for 2 or 3 days then trash the remaining pills and abstain for about 2 weeks till time to refill. It is very embarrassing. When I am in the 2-3 day use/abuse period I think about ways to stop, treatment, counselor, telling a friend, getting a sponsor, etc.