Well...the Hydroxyzine DID work out for me, and I know it's not addictive, but now that I am clean and sober, I have such a strong affinity for popping pills.
I used to take pills like Valium, and Qualudes, and cross-tops,in my teens and twenties, so I have a bad association with them. We even used to call the Speed we did,"antihistimines"...so I hear that word, and I'm like, "no thanks", and do the white knuckle thing,like I've done for years.