Understand, though, that if you are accurate
in your self-assessment, then I have no idea what goes on
in the mind of
your species! I cannot really relate, because I have never been anywhere close to a situation where I could control my use of opiates.
It seems that like bad news and bad movies, messages come in threes. My last message or two were along this same line-- people who believed they were 'physically dependent' and not addicted. I wonder, though, in your case as well.