it has ruled mine for over 2 yrs and I am only 20yrs old, I am missing out, loosing jobs, it holding me back from college, loosing friends, irritating my bf, people just give up (like you said, after the negitive tests) so please dont let this rule your life,,,I am getting counseling...its okay. doesnt help me , but it might help you
. But over all, i just think you
should bring positive in your life if you can. Excercise, eat right, laugh, this is all medicine for your symtoms.