Goodness, it took me a lot
of work with the therapist and a lot
of time before I started letting go
of the guilt and self blame.
I have two healthy, happy kids now, 14, and 6. My Joshua would have been 12 now. I don't think about him every day like I used to, but he's always in my heart, and I often think that sometimes, in order to better appreciate the gifts we DO have, loss is necessary.
My heart goes out to you...