I lost my father awhile back, and then my ex fiance developed pancreatitis and became so withdrawn that we eventually broke up(he actually almost od'd on benzos-went to medical detox, came out and had a seizure
),and I had other bad things happen back then that triggered my first round of pill abuse. I realize that's all NO excuse, but they were there. My best friend at the time sold the d@mn things.
So, after awhile, I got fed up and did in fact quit.