So even if I went through surgery, I would sill be a Man. I feel dirty for wanting to be a girl, I feel lonely
for all the time, I want everything to end. I'm shy, I get bad grades, I'm lazy, I'm clumsy, I'm transgender, I'm depressed, I'm a waste of space, a waste of resources, I wouldn't be missed. Again, I'm exhausted right now, this is probably full of mistakes, I know I'm a mistake so all I do is make more.