i fear that i am a slippery slope

I found out that I just plain cannot trust myself to have a bottle around. Thought that I could for a long time. And made it just that long before I found that I was only lying to myself.

I am not being mean, I WOULD HATE to see you go up and up (as I have done) and you are at a relatively low dose, it just gets worse. ACK! That being said I am not RIGHT, I am trying to save you some of the **** I am experiencing, as I kept tellingmyself "Oh, I will be ok", while counting pills, and waiting for refill day. I wish you well, this is FAR from easy.

It is a slippery slope and an easy trap. For me, alcohol is a drug. It is mind and mood altering so I avoid it. It is also a depressant and I am sure you don't need that. It may also hinder your withdrawal process and even prolong it. It is your choice to make. Good luck.

Now there is a fear thing going on in me wondering if I can stop. What can I expect, systoms, how bad, how long, and is there anything I can do to help make it a little easier.

But it is a very slippery slope. I pretty much had myself convinced I was addicted but the truth is, I was only dependent. Doesn't mean I couldn't become addicted. I came off everything, with a lot of help from this board, but I can honestly say I never had any behaviors that leaned toward addiction. For me, I will probably go on and off pain meds for the rest of my life due to my conditions. I hope that I'm always aware enough of how easy it is to slide into addiction.

Even with all this knowledge I still back slide. I see the person I am sober and I like that person. So then why do I go backwards? I don't want to give some sorry excuse for why I'm back to 48 hours clean after a year and a half of abuse. I had gotten over 400 clean days, the most I had since I started my addiction and my life was great. All the right stuff was happening. My career took off, I met so many cool people and made lots of friends.

It was a nightmare just to walk into a crowded bar / club but once I started drinking I was fine. I am no an alcoholic because of it...but recently have been diagnosed with General Anxiety Disorder (GAD). I was put on .5 mg of Xanax and it has worked wonders. I dont feel loopy on it, I just feel normal but without the stuff I said above. It has also helped me cut down on my alcohol intake. The one thing I would say is DO NOT use alcohol to medicate...

I am so very grateful for this community. I have been reading posts for three weeks and discovering many layers to my own addiction. I have been on and off Tramadol for two years and having crazy depression and mysterious illness issues. I did not ever connect my dis "ease" to Tramadol until I changed to hydro 3 months ago. Hydro helped me through a very difficult and painful inflammation cycle and now I have started to exhibit addictive tendencies with the hydro.

I totally agree. I think it's important to stay informed.

Hi all, Long story short....My dr originally put me on hydrocodone 750mg due to herniated/buldging discs. then after about 5 months of that switched me to ms contin 30 mg. Was on that for about a year & a half... New dr wanted me off them saying that was too strong of a med for me which I totally agreed, after all my MIL was on the same dosage for her terminal cancer & I no longer wanted any part of them! Instead my new dr put me on perks 1000mg 4 x a day...

stopped ALL controlled substances (hence the reason Im tapering off xanax too now). I cut all connections long ago so theres no way i could get any if i tried but i hate that i hurt so much and hate that it makes me want to take some. Ive been gobbling up motrin 800 mgs around the clock and extra strength tyelonl too but it just doesnt do squat for this pain. I sure hope this weather system moves out soon!! Anyone have a new spine they care to donate??

My panic disorder makes me paranoid that I am dying a lot of the time, but I need to post this because I need to make sure I am okay. I am not nodding out, my vision is okay, I am not that nauseas at all, I just feel pressure and am tense and afraid. I also mixed with xanax, and doubled my panic disorder meds today. Should I drink a lot of water? Deep breathing? Throw up? Any feedback would help.

I want to go and I really want to see if I can enjoy the music sober and if so (which I am quite sure I will) I think it will be a big relief/accomplishment in my sobriety but I am also nervous and wondering if it is too early. I do have a plan. I am driving there so I will have my car if I want to leave. I am going with 3 friends and all of them know everything and know I will not be drinking, etc.

I believe too, that I should be worried. What I'm wondering is if I should tell his probation officer, even though very likely it will mean him going back to jail. (the jail thing this time around is unrelated to alcohol. Though his court order does say no alcohol. He gets around that by having no alcohol closer to the time he has to do ua's. I've already "been in", for nearly two years.

While recently on vacation, I also had a small amount of medical marijuana. Subsequently, I experienced a deep depressive/sad reaction quite out of character and without any seeming reason for the abrupt change following a terrific fun day. Is it possible that mixing the two could have triggered it? My sweetheart uses medical marijuana for his enlarged prostate. I took one big puff. Thanks for your response.

Without condoning your act, I will say it is understandable that you let your hosts provide you an escort. In Asia, when such gifts are provided it is a sign of cultural respect to accept them. It is further worsened by the fact that fidelity is not as ingrained in their culture... it is considered acceptable for married men to have 20 partners after marriage during the course of their lives (the women don't like it, but the culture has ingrained it ...

I just started seeing a new doctor. Before I went in for my appointment I went to urgent care and they gave me an rx of flexeril and vicodin. Will that show up on my new doctors computer, or does she have to dig for that info?

Hi my Boyfriend who is almost 25 snorts Percocet which his mother openly gives him as a coping mechanism to deal with his stress. He swears up and down he is not addicted to them but just likes the feelings is gives him. I am unsure of how often he snorts these pills even though he says he doesn't do it often, maybe once or twice a month. However, I am still very worried that this is a much more serious issue than he tries to get me to believe.

I take vicodin daily. I take anywhere from 2-3 pills (10-15mg) a day, on an as-needed basis. Like you, I don't really enjoy any high, nor do I feel it anymore. I used to, when I started them. But I'm acclimated to it now. I will say that they are not as effective as they used to be - however, I refuse to up my dose. It's a slippery slope. I don't think I'm addicted to them...but I do NEED them for pain. If I run out, I'm in a world of hurt by evening.

wondering how bad the w/d will be after using that amount for approx. a months time. i am also scared that i may still have some the lingering tram w/d. i cannot be sick. it is not an option. i was unemployed for 2 1/2 years and this job is a godsend. any advice would be wonderful.

I am a 18-year-old female. In the past month or so, I have noticed that occasionally I feel a few drops of liquid drip out of what feels like my urethral opening. it happens spontaneously. The obvious explanation is that I am peeing a little bit and I need to strengthen my PC muscles.

Thanks for responding. I have been put on Mobic for a knee problem, which has now resolved. I hoping that my pain Dr. will agree to let me stop the narcotic pain meds and try to use the Mobic and epidurals. I really don't know what is worse-the steroids in the epidurals or staying on Percocet. It would be OK if I really felt it was helping, but I don't. I had a sciatica flare up about 3 months ago, and had to go on Oxycontin 20mg for a few weeks.

I am a heroin user. I don't know if you would class me as an addict. As i use about once a week. I started to feel sick after the last time I used like withdrawal symptoms so I got 12mg of suboxone. I took 4 one day, 3 the next, 2 the next, and one today. Will I now have suboxone withdrawal tomorrow.? Also, does suboxone show up on a urine test?

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