You won't kill yourself but I can tell you exactly what is going to happen when you are finally out of pills. I weened myself off the vicoden and still had terrible WD. The first day will not be bad, but the second, third, fourth, and fifth are going to be hell. I am not going to sugar coat it. You will have the runs (I would go 20 times a day), headache, joint aches, very hot and sweaty, nervousness, shakiness and you might cry...a lot.