thanks for the welcome guys. i called my nephrologist, he knows my fears of being labelled a drug seeker, he assured me he understood and called me in more meds. i avoid the ER at all costs, even though that is where I should have gone.
the withdrawals weren't as bad as with the fentanyl, go figure, but nursing my baby was hell, the restless feeling made it hard to sit and the pain hit my supply, so he was nursing longer and more frequently.