It hurts me to know that you've got so much going on, and from so far back in the past, but the pain is still real and
is the pits. I had horrible anxiety
when I was drinking, and
for a long time I didn't realize that the drinking was causing the anxiety, so I drank even more. I think anxiety, especially anxiety or panic attacks, are the worst physical feelings I've ever had. If they hadn't gone away when I got sober, there is no way I'd be coming up on 4 years.