He is aware of what I am doing, have hurt him more than once due to this
addiction. Anyway, I want to run up to him this morning, about 3 hours away where I know nobody. He would be there for me. My job, ha, am spending in a day and a half what I make in two weeks......and is where I met the other addicts, not too safe a place for me to spend time. (get my money from divorce settlement, how clearly an addidct, to actually be cashing out stock and an IRA for money, omg.