Started out really rough -- high anxiety, crying, suicidal urges and plans. Called in sick to work but only after lying on couch until about an hour after I was supposed to be at work. Called Dan. In afternoon called Dr. Conti who told me to increase meds to Lamotrigine 150 mg bid, Lexapro 30 mg for next week, and, if needed, to 40 mg the following week. He will meet with me next Tuesday. Called Suzie who talked me through some soul collage imagery. Called Wendy for my daily check-in.