Looking back over the last 5 years, I have been depressed and caught up in
a world of unreality (going into my world) dwelling in
the past. I often, flet an unreal feeling - was I really alive? With tiredness, numbness, worthlessness and so on. I started to drink a lot again and self harm a bit, for a couple of years. I have stopped this, but I then started drinking and taking pills, to hurt myself. I have not been hospitalized or anything.