Some people suffer the loss of a loved one and go into a depression, but with counseling and time return to normal. A divorce, loss
, etc can all send one into a depression
. Sometimes it may be something that happened to us as a child which we have chose to forget, and often with therapy we dicover this and deal with it and are able to move on, medication free. But it sounds like you are not at that point, and may never be, I don't know.