You have been through a great deal,not only did you lose your brother in such a tragic way you didnt grieve as you had to be strong for him,now 2 years on you are feeling the sadness the fear and the loss,it is only natural what you are going through,you need to grieve properly,you will never get over this but maybe with help and support you will be able to ease
the hurt and learn to cope
with the fears that you haveat
the moment,please ask about speaking to a theripist about this my thoughts ar