You have been through a great deal,not only did you lose your brother in such a tragic way you didnt grieve as you had to be strong for him,now 2 years on you are feeling the sadness the fear and the loss,it is only natural what you are going through,you need to grieve properly,you
will never get over this but maybe
with help and support you
will be able to ease the hurt and learn to cope with the fears that you haveat the moment,please ask about speaking to a theripist about this my thoughts ar