I can definitely relate to what you're going through. I've been on a number of medications--Depakote, Cymbalta, Lamictal and Geodon. The combination doesn't seem to help no matter how much my psychiatrist raises the dose. In my case, I have no insurance, so I just have to be patient. It's hard after feeling this way for 3 years. If I were you, I'd give it some more time, because I've heard that ECT makes you lose your memory, etc. Let me know how you do.