hi you have been through a lot, you wont die without your script, so try not to worry, you have been through a lot, but you will go into withdrawal, it would be good to come off the lortabs, and it can be done
cold turkey, there are things that can help with that, and maybe you can at least find some of them,i dont think taking 5 xanax is any good for you, its not a good benzo with a very short half life and will give you more problems, does your dr. prescribe them and ambien?