The good people here will offer advice and support -- a very caring place in a
cold world, this site -- but address all the questions in this post, please.
We're here, in various stages of recovery, or working on that very difficult but extremely courageous "jump" from this family of wicked drugs (when abused) that you took. Congratulations on that, by the way -- it really is the toughest part; we'll get to the what-to-do-next when you get there. Be strong.