I do not have my feelings and thoughts out of order, so I do not have a disorder
, I simply am, I AM. Free association an complex thoughts are fun for me, as long as I rest my mind enough. So my thoughts gently persuade my mood, there is no way to control them. My theory now is, that if I maintain mental elasticity and allow my moods to be, yet be careful of my thoughts surrounding them, I can avoid another psychotic break. That is all I am really concerned about.