then she started smoking again in 2001, needless to say after not wanting any, being around her for a couple yrs smoking
it reawoke my smoking
disease. So, smoked on and off in 2003, quit
for 2004. Then she died in 2005 not from smoking at 41. So I felt justified to bury my grief in cigs. since then i have struggled on and off. even stopped for 2.5 months after surgeries and started again each time. Now back to one or 5 a day or none for a few days, but it keeps coming back.