Join the Cornstarch Discussion Group it is for people with PICA. You will find that a lot of the people there have the same desires and cravings like you.
Here is a link: Cornstarch-***@****
The Cornstarch Discussion Group
Do you eat “NON-FOOD/Non Nutritional" items such as ice, dirt, clay, laundry starch, cornstarch, etc., then you may be have PICA, a craving for non-food items. This discussion group is for anyone who has PICA or has a partner, friend, or child dealing with it.