My grandmother has never had a drink in her life, but she was a regular at many parties
and bars. She has fun without the
alcohol. For some people, normal means no
alcohol at all.
I too suffer from OCD and can understand your obsessive thoughts and how they can take over your life. What I've found to help me is my weekly group (love them) and a journal. A lot of positive talk to yourself will help too. I write almost daily, at least everytime an obsessive thought creeps up.