Hey there, the emotional roller
coaster is very normal. There will be ups and downs, and highs and lows. You just need to fight through it. Getting outside in the fresh air is a great thing, and will help. As I'm sure you know by now, alcohol will not help. Try to stay away from that, at least right now. You have been doing amazing. Stay focused and strong, and get your butt outside and get some exercise. Take care, you can do this!!