If you feel at any time negative and/or harmful thoughts about your
children, go to the hospital or call 911 okay? You emotionally abandoned your
children by what you said. Do you know how that will affect a child?
Get some help now, if you can't take care of them and have no family, call child protective services until you can get healthy again. You might be able to fix the damage, but emotionally abusing a child is NEVER okay.