When I read your comments,
I remembered just how hard it was to fight
smoking. Before
I was able to quit myself,
I have had a many attempts. There was a time when I stopped for one year and had a relapse.
But then there comes a time when the body just seems to have had enough punishment, and you would feel the abuse. And you'll get into thinking, what the heck am I doing to myself? and then you will decide to stop smoking. Again. And when you do, decide to end it, you can.