i want to be high! This is
very very hard, torn between what
i know i have to do, and what
i want to do. I know if i continue down the road of addiction, i will drag my husband down with me and he will die... Also, my addiction will slowly get worse and worse. Although, i feel it's ok now, not causing too many problems, but that could change overnight, and i could loose everything, then it could be too late.